The identification with the old forms of the personality self is likened to a snake skin that drops away. We wake up one day to the realisation that the personification and the understanding we have of ourselves in relation to the outside world no longer “feels” like a true representation of who we are and how we identify ourselves.
The shamanic path allows us the opportunity to no longer use outside reference points as identifiers of our place within reality. The fear emerges when we desperately cling to the hope of resurrecting the sense of animation between connections to places, people and roles that no longer breathe life into our reality.
Disillusion is a painful and necessary part of this process. In the contemplation of what no longer resonates, we open up new worlds of discovery that only allow us to continue when we drop the old weight of outer identifications. The further we go along this path, the more difficult it is/more effort it takes to reanimate our old connections to the outer worlds we no longer identify with. This is where we must develop the reference points within ourselves and come into our own channeled innate higher wisdom, as the theories and the available knowledge shared in our reality only serve as theory until integrated as an inner knowingness. This requires stepping beyond the veil of uncertainty and limitation into the silence. Only through that silence are we able to access the higher wisdom and understanding that gives us a sense of our bearings in this new comprehension of our reality.
The theories are only theories until we develop this inner compass. It has to be strong within us otherwise it is very easy to lose our mind between these crumbling forms of reality. Outer forms, people, places, roles, we will attempt to cling to desperately while we are “unraveling” and in the process of forming our own grounded understanding of the new limitless form we can “feel” ( consciously or not ) that we are moving towards. This struggle will exasperate if we are in the fear of losing our bearing. The ego self will literally run from this as it would appear as a death, and total annihilation of existence. And yet as in death, in the stillness of its release, after the shock and trauma it would slowly open its eyes to the awareness that it still exists within a new reality. In a sense it is death and rebirth.
Within the discovery of these new inner worlds we begin to question and relinquish our fear around our roles and relations to people. We also begin to ask the questions that grant us clarity in relation to our fears, desires, projections and expectations of others. A sense of living without need begins to form, as the reference points we felt were so ingrained in our connectedness to others, we discover already exist within us. We no longer feel the desperation to have people mirror our power and infiniteness to us, as the sense of seeking that reassurance from others reaches a state of futility and never ending insecurity. We begin to model ourselves on an existence of sharing information, compassion, openness and the free flowing facilitation of growth for ourselves and others, without expectation and attachments. The attachments become unnecessary.
A sense of freedom and joy develops as we truly begin to get a sense of enjoying this world without the fear of losing it. We can enjoy interaction with others and the peaking of shared experience without the fear of its dissipation within our sense of linear time frames. It also frees us from our fears and judgements of social obligation and the projected time frames of others, as we realise we can move between different time frames and still functionally operate within each perceived reality. It doesn’t have to equate to losing all sense of our earth bodies and sitting in a state of ecstatic bliss without return. That is again a notion based on fear and limitation of what is possible for us to experience, or a dualistic formed structure of reality. We have permission to be in the true essence of who we are in all walks of life. I AM that I AM that I AM.
Maurice Katting is a Massage Therapist, Reiki Practitioner and Vibrational Healer based in Melbourne, Australia
You can connect with him at http://thedisconnecthealingspace.com